My wonderful brother and his wonderful girlfriend took me grocery shopping yesterday. It was really really nice of them because I shop in a particular way that to someone else would probably be extremely annoying. Thank you for your patience Loves. Here is a list of some of the things I bought:
red onions
yellow onions
green onions
garlic
leeks
mixed beans (for soup)
mixed beans (canned, for eating)
mixed nuts
lentils
extra old cheddar
mozzarella
feta
lemons
sea salt (whole, so I can grind it myself)
celery
strawberries
spinach
spring mix (complete with swiss chard)
spinach
vegetable broth
carrots
green peppers
mushrooms
This is the start of my vegetarian diet. I'm going to making a lot of soups, and salads. I already have lots of rice and pasta in the house but much MUCH less meat. Yesterday for supper I made hamburger helper and greek salad. MmmmmmMmmm good. Yesterday my first full day as a veggie. I honestly already feel pretty good. Much more energy than I'm used to. Today I have only had breakfast (Fruit Loops with fresh strawberries and bananas) and am going to have a delicious toasted cheese bagel after I'm done writing this. I'm really proud of myself and looking forward to inspiring my family to eat better. Landon thinks I'm crazy but I know he'll eat healthier because of what I'm doing for myself.
My grandpa passed away yesterday. He turned 89 on Saturday and has been really sick the last few months, so it wasn't a surprise. Even though it was expected, it still really sucks. I love my grandpa, and have fond memories of him growing up. The last time I had seen him was a few years ago I think. He hadn't met my youngest son, and it wasn't because he didn't want to. He lived in North Battleford and because of his health, it wasn't easy for him to travel. I could have easily driven my family up there but for fear of it being awkward, I never did. With his passing I am feeling a lot of guilt for not seeing him often enough and not making sure he knew how I felt about him. My dad is in North Battleford right now and I haven't spoken with him since this happened. I really hope he is okay. I can imagine he is feeling a lot of guilt as well. My dad's side is a small family, and don't get together as often as they should. He has one sister, Auntie Sandra, who has two children, Christine and Timothy. I really do love them. I've always felt bad being so much closer to my Opa than my Grandpa, but I've always thought that he knew I still loved him. The funeral is tentatively set for next Tuesday, while Landon is in Detroit. Little fact of the day, I am named after my Grandpa. Aimee, my middle name, is his first name. It means "love" in French. If I have a daughter someday, I will name her Aimee.
My sister is missing. The last time anyone spoke to her was Wednesday. She had told work that day, that she had to go to a funeral in Alberta, and would be back by the weekend. She has been a no show/no call since then. Today is Monday and no one knows where she is. I'm terrified of what could have happened to her. She doesn't do this you know, just fuck off to Alberta. Or anywhere. She always lets me know if she's planning to go somewhere, she would have told me if someone in Danny's family died (he has family in Alberta). I've done everything I can think to do besides calling the Police. I am going to leave that one up to my parents. She has no idea about my Grandpa. I've had this feeling for about a week that something bad was about to happen. I am somewhat satisfied that it was the passing of my Grandpa instead of something more tragic. But with Betty being gone, and Landon leaving for Detroit in a week, this feeling is still there a little bit, I just can't figure out if its the same, or something new. The one great thing I got from my mother is good instincts, and I've always trusted them because they have never once let me down. Its just hard when I can't tell if its instinct, or fear that's making me feel this way. I just need to know. I just need to know. I just NEED to KNOW.
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