I Offer You, An Intimate Look Into My Parenting Style

I lied. This is my next post, and it isn't a link to my new blog. I just REALLY needed to share this now. Maybe I will keep this blog open as well..........

Anyway...things to know: Characters in italics represent me. The rest represent Hayden

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Mom, I can't sleep; I keep thinking about zombies.

They're real y'know.

Mom.

Okay Hayden listen. You're a smart boy. Can you logically believe that zombies are real?

No.

Is it at all possible for them to become real?

Maybe.

Right. So you know how you should think about zombies?

As friends?

No, as sports equipment. Practice your football, soccer, hockey...

LOLZ

Hey, even tennis. Say you wanna learn to play tennis. Well you just happen to have your very own life supply of fresh zombies! Just rip off an arm and tear it across the court!

LMBOZ (Cuz he's not allowed to swear)

Feel better?

*HUGZ* Thanks Mommy. I love you

I love you too Sonshine.

My Favourite Disney Princess is Aurora

I've been thinking about starting a new blog lately. Maybe even shutting this own down. When I originally started this, it was for somewhere for me to go, at whatever time I wanted, to rant or rave or just write about nonsense. I can't figure out why, but I have no substance left in my writing. Whatever it was that kept my readers interested has disappeared. I've always wanted to write a book. A memoir of sorts. This blog was supposed to help me learn how to talk about myself in a way that no matter the subject, there was still someone there who wanted to hear what I had to say.

I think what's happened, is that instead of coming here to type type type away, I have come here to talk. I talk to you now. That's not what I should be doing. I should not care about when you're gonna read this, how many of you are gonna read this, what you're going to think about this, etc. Time for a fresh start.

Yup. My next post will be a link to my new blog. Ye Be Ready.

A Letter

Some background info: My big sister, April-Lee, was born with Cerebral Palsy, epilepsy, scoliosis and a wonderful mixture of spastic outbursts and quadriplegia. She was my Mom and Dad's first child. Born at twenty-seven weeks into gestation and weighing about two pounds. She was literally the size of a Barbie Doll. She spent sixty-nine days in NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) with my parents at her side as much as possible. The doctors gave her until the age of five, at most. Because my parents are two of the most incredible people on earth, April-Lee has lived happily and healthily for the last thirty years. There have been some terrifying moments, and my childhood had an ever lingering odour of fear; but the love of my parents, is stronger than fear. The love of my parents is stronger than doubt. The love of my parents is stronger than anything I have ever known. It's so awesome to be in that love. All the time.

Dear April-Lee,

I have one older sister, one younger sister, and one brother; the youngest of us four.

I realized today that I will never be able to give my big sister a Cheers to the Bride toast. It would be such an honour, to be able to stand in front of hundreds of people, going on and on and on about how awesome you are. So, I took the opportunity to say something today.

I have been so blessed, to be born with you already in my life, and to be able to grow up with you, so closely. I've seen people all around me fall in love with you. I've seen people willing to do anything for you. I've met people, who you've entranced in such a way, that you may very well have changed that person's life. I have seen everyone around you become captivated by your charm within minutes of meeting you (something I've always been quite jealous of by the way). I've seen my friends, family; and countless doctors, teachers, police officers and other "professional" people, act like complete idiots when they think they're alone with you. I was surrounded by strange sound effects, laughter, show tunes, laughter, made up words, laughter, yelps, laughter, accidents, laughter, arguments...laughter. There was always such positive energy in my home. Even through the tough times April-Lee, you and your absolutely terrible sense of humour were always there for me.

My parents were so fortunate, to have you not only as their first child, but their first daughter. They could not have asked for a better first daughter, April-Lee. And I am honoured to have followed that. You're a true inspiration. I don't know many girls who's big sister is a real, true, honest, courageous, loving, optimistic and delightful human being like yourself. You are such a vital part of this family dynamic, and of my personal life experience. Thank you for being so awesome.

April-Lee, I want to make sure you know that I love you. That Betty-Jean and Johnathan love you. That Mom and Dad love you. That our love and support, but mostly your indestructible will, helped you to reach this incredible milestone.

Thirty years old.

Wow.

What an honour to be a part of your family :)