November

I HATE November. Halloween is over, my oldest son gets older, I spend a lot more money than at any other time of year, and I am reminded of the loved ones I have lost. Also, the further it gets into November, the closer it gets to Christmas. Christmas and I have a love/hate relationship. I love giving as much as I can give, but I never can give enough, and I HATE all the flamboyant bullshit draped in every hall of every building and I HATE all the happy joy joy Christmas movies about how Santa is real and the meaning of Christmas is love and blah blah blah. No I am not a Scrooge, I just think Christmas has gone way to far, and its not stopping until every corporate big wig is stuffed to the size of old Kris Kringle with money. Anyway, this isn't about Christmas, its about November.

List of significant events this month that I have to, sometimes unwillingly, pay attention to:

November 3rd - my oldest son's birthday. This year he will be turning the ripe old age of six. Please stop growing Hayden. Please don't become a snotty teenager and stop cuddling with me.

November 4th - Memorial of Jonathan Dyck. Passed away at 16 some 8 years ago.

November 9th - pediatrician appointment for Hayden. This time, I'll be told that my baby still has asthma, will probably continue to have it forever, and needs an MRI or whatever they do to find neurological issues. Woo.

November 11th - Remembrance Day

November 18th - Memorial for my Auntie Denise Ruth Toussiant. It will be 4 years. This sucks.

November 20th - Child tax. Another reminder of how I make too much money to get any support from the the government, yet not enough to live comfortably, so here's $20

November 22nd - Kristen's 27th birthday. Yet another reminder of how old I am getting.

November 23rd - Memorial of Brenda Exner. Fantastic boss. Passed away from some kind of cancer 2 years ago.

November 28th - Christmas party for Landon's work. Another reason for me to feel fat and self conscious, and, watch everyone enjoy their Christmas cheer while I remember that I'm sober, and will be for rest of my life. Woo again.