All You Need Is Love

All you need to survive, is love. If you base your life on love, you will be happy. Love teaches you to be patient, kind, forgiving, understanding, compassionate, etc etc.... but when you love someone who keeps disappointing you over and over and OVER again, what do you do? Do you forgive them AGAIN? Do you have compassion for them AGAIN? Do you ignore the hurt and the anger and be patient and understanding AGAIN??? Just so you can get hurt fucking AGAIN??????
Argh, argh indeed.

My dad is the greatest man I know. The greatest man that ever lived. Including Bruce Wayne. My dad is the greatest man I know. I love my dad. I love my dad. I really love my daddy. My daddy is sick. He has lymphoma. It's going to kill him. He will die in 10-15 years, at the most. 10-15 years, you might say, is a long time. At least its not 10-15 weeks, you might say. At least its not 10-15 days, you might say. At least he's alive right now, you might say. OR, you could say, 10-15 years? That sucks! He's not going to see your kids get married. He's not going to see your kids graduate even. What's up with that? That's too young to die. Especially for the greatest man that ever lived. He won't even get a chance to do anything for himself. He's just been working his whole life, providing for his family. Caregiving his children. What about caregiving himself? What about retiring and enjoying the relaxing life of grandparents? What about April-Lee? When are you going to get a break from her?

Don't get me wrong, I love April-Lee, but having children of my own have made me understand what a difficult child she is. May parents love her unconditionally and have therefore given their lives for her. Imagine your new son or daughter, needing to be completely dependent on someone for the rest of their life, and because you love them so much, you don't trust anyone else to take care of them, so you do it. Until they die. This means that you have a "baby" forever. You don't get to go camping and fishing whenever you want. You don't get to go stay in a hotel on your anniversary, or go on a cruise just for fun. You don't get to do anything. You think you have a difficult time finding a babysitter now? Try finding someone capable of caring for a Level 4 Quadriplegic. Over night???? Not a chance. No one wants to do that. It's too much work. So you have to. You have to work your ass off your whole life because your wife can't do it, she needs to stay home with the kids. You have to come home from work and NOT get a break because your wife has been working all day, and she needs a break first. You have to give up everything for everyone else. Everyone else comes first. WELL NOT THIS TIME DADDY! I am MAKING you go to that concert if it kills me. You MORE than deserve this. Be a teenager again for one night. Who knows when it will come next time.