Am I really that good at my job that I am left here for several lengths of time to do nothing? The answer is no. It just works that way sometimes. So as I sit here, (on my break....maybe) typing away, listening to The Black Keys, I wonder what my life would be like had I gone to university. Or had I followed my make up artistry career path. I love my workplace. Currently. Sometimes I get frustrated and impatient but for the most part, I'm happy where I ended up. There's a lot people I would not have met had I not worked here. Matthew being one. Brittany another. Two of the most important people in my life to date. I love them more than either will ever know. Had I gone to university to become a teacher like I wanted to right out of highschool, I'd probably not be married and probably be sleeping with highschool students, because that's how I roll. Had I followed my make up artistry career path I would probably be a giant bitch and high on coke 90% of the time, again, because that's how I roll. So yeah, I'm happy. I have no regrets. Not a one. Even when I think about the only regret that I may have, I think about what I have learned from it, and decide that no, I have none. I wouldn't be who I am, or where I am, if I had made different choices growing up. I hate a lot of things, but mostly because I haven't learned how to deal with them just yet.
I hate being quiet and content. These pills are cyanide for my soul!!!!! Ugh.
2 comments:
ahhh Casey. I love you! You are outwardly what I am in my head... if that makes sense? I once told a hairdresser that if I didn't have Hailey that I would probably be a crack head... She was seriously taken aback by that... She probably thought I was already a crack head and then I got pregnant... anyways, you are wonderful, and I love you again!
This is a comment on all of the posts I hadn't read--the last one I read was the suck it bitches one. Anyways...I love you Casey. I love Casey, KC, Casey-Lynn, Wednesday Clash, and whomever you are today. It is important you feel loved and know that you are loved by many. The creativity will never leave you, it is who you are. I won't say all I want to say on here because it is no one elses business but yours. All you need to know for right now is that I love you. I love that you have no regrets, and the one thing you wanted to maybe do with your life is still possible. It's not too late.
Love you so much...
ps-we need a coffee date sans children
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