Hooray For Boobies

I love/hate Blogger's new template design feature crap. I don't know jack shit about graphic design or whatever clicking buttons and choosing colours is, but I managed to make my blog look different. I'm thankful that I didn't have to pick one of the crappy old ones. I'm thankful that when I get bored of this one, I can pick something TOTALLY different. Awesome.

So remember a little while ago I told you about how I went to the doctor because I felt like I was going to cough my lungs out? And they were like, "you have asthma"? And gave me some inhalers? And they didn't work? Remember that???? Well I went and got myself a fancy olde chest x ray last night and............to say the least, I am SCARED. I've been fighting with myself to talk more about this or not, for fear of sounding like a hypochondriac. I am not a hypochondriac, just incredibly blessed to be so self aware. I've been experiencing symptoms for years and trying to blame it on smoking. When I quit smoking and the symptoms subsided, that just added to my theory that it really was just from smoking. But, truth be told, they never completely went away and pretty much the day that I started again, they came back with a vengeance, and brought friends. If you would like to see a list of all my current symptoms <----look here.

So, hoping that you've just finished skimming through that page, you can see that I am terrified of lung cancer. I almost typed lunch cancer just now, which would have been hilarious had I not noticed. After speaking to my doctor, and other people, I am beginning to feel more and more like a crazy person, but I know what I know. I know how I feel, and I know what is happening to my body. I know that if it isn't cancer, its something, and that something needs to get taken care of before it turns into cancer. I hear "you're too young" and "I highly doubt you have cancer" a lot. But by dad was too young too you know. My dad highly doubted he had cancer, and now he has stage 4, Follicular, Non-Hodgkins, incurable lymphoma.

So there.